First Rodeo

First Rodeo

On reclaiming an attention span, multitasking, and picking up a book.

There's much ado about analog as a trend these days-- but how is a modern, digitally-employed person to manage the balance?

Azora Zoe Paknad
Mar 31, 2026
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I’m about to expose myself to you— this was a terrible reading month for me. I think it was the least books I’ve read in a month in years! (Caveating that this number was low for me and my reading habits, not for anyone/everyone— duh!)

Truthfully, for most of March, stress really got to me. It totally wormed its way into my brain. I am often really fixated on healthy habits, eating, exercise, tech hygiene, etc, and I maintained a lot of that facade through the most stressful, anxious and exhausted bits of this month. I got really really close to burnout, close enough to reach out and poke it with my big toe.

Last week I was taking a long walk and talking to my therapist, who I am seeing more regularly these days. I’m thinking of it as an act of kindness towards myself, one outlet just for me— not for work, not for my partner, not for my friends, not for my family. One hour every other week to selfishly make it all about me. My therapist has seen me through failing as a founder, the utter destitution that followed, and several jobs and highs and lows since— but that’s a story for another day.

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